The Boxer just one more poor guy waiting in the LIMBO

The Boxer

In one of trillionths of halls I found this weird guy ( I should stop saying weird , since everybody here in the Limbo was weird or strange looking) who was wearing a blatantly colored boxing shorts and in his hands a pair of boxing gloves.

Everybody called him The Boxer.

I could easily sense some agony he was enduring and at the same time I saw some signs of rebellion on his face. He looked like someone having a nightmare.

I stopped to observe him , and without asking -like always- the Voices started to “inform” me of his sins:
_He likes pink clothes!!

_He is a dirty man !!He speaks about sex without shame!
_Yeah! He thinks that is more fun to have more than one position other than missionary!!
_ Right! He does not like the idea of using a blanket to cover a woman when doing “that”
I asked….excuse me? A blanket??? “That” ?
_Yes!!!! A blanket with a hole to permit the man to “be” with her!!
I never heard of such practice…mmm an adorned embroided blanket that covers her whole body and leaves only a hole to “be” ( I assumed they meant penetrate) with her.
_Just look at his body! You can see his dirty thoughts!

Like I did before, I just ignored them knowing that these Voices some belonged to past cultures and it was easy to assume that their ideas clashed with this man that looked from my times.
But he was there in the Limbo the same as the Voices being accused of something and since you can’t  go yet  to Heaven or  God to the Eternal Life he was here in the Limbo waiting to get his sentence.
The Boxer had his eyes closed but he still flunged his hands at “something” like demons in a nightmare.
Sometimes he looked very decided to fight whatever he was fighting and some times he looked in anguish when his thoughts emerged all over his body.
When he looked anguished a snake appeared on his head, injecting her poison.
Below I will explain why this snake was a her.
I needed to know why this man looked rebellios , willing to fight whatever he was fighting and mortified at the same time.
I invited him to follow me to an empty room where nobody could he could have a brake from the accusations of the relenteless Voices.
_What’s your name”
_ My name? You want my name or the name given to me by the Voices and society or the name given to me by my parents?
_It does not matter.How should I call you?
Call me The Boxer, since I got used to it and besides I forgot to be myself  and since I forgot to be myself  I forgot my real name too.
_Ok Mr Boxer.Why the Boxer shorts? Where you a boxer in the earth? I like the color , not many men would dare to wear that color , I admire you, I sense you are a one of a kind person.
The Boxer thought I was mocking him when I mentioned the word “color”, his reaction was unexpected:
_You too!Ha! You too!!!!
_What the fuck is wrong with PINK?? You mean a man CAN NOT wear pink because is a feminine color? You looked smarter, but I was wrong, you are not! You are like The Voices, or like my parents or ancestors who sound exactly like those god dammed voices!! Where did you get the idea that pink is a feminine color? When did this pink thing became a law? Even if it was a law I have the right to disagree with it and fight it!!!

I saw the man was almost having a heart attack , I saw his chin tremble, his voice was choked, his extremeties shaked too, his eyes were  as big as a saucer( what a liar I am!), his voice got weaker and weaker.
_No! No!No! Hold it Boxer! I really meant when I said I like pink, because I am an ar….
My sentence was cut short by the boxer who had gained his strenght back.
_So, you think I am a gay ? Ha? Let me tell you something about pink! Pink is a color like any other color ! Did you know that? What would you know! You are no different than those Voices!

I could tell he had an issue with The Voices.

I was about to say something when he started shooting again.
_I know what you are thinking, that I hate The Voices….
I was surprised and marveled at this man…could he read minds?
_No, for your info I don’t hate them, see, The Voices and the Great Society are the one and the same.My parents were Voices too, I was raised by Voices, by copies of a copies, clones of  clones,…see? They had the same ideas  maybe thousand years old and could not change or stop their lives and see if these assertions were true or not. They just took them as an  absolute TRUTH. Where did they get the idea that colors are good or bad? Pink is gay or feminine. Black is bad or Demoniac, which by the way I don’t see the famous devil in red or black or with big horns and long tail smelling like sulphur, Aztec eyes ( indigenous) or with the legs of a goat! What a lie!!

He took a long breath and since he was in a roll and I knew he would not listen to me I let them proceed:
_So, White is good, associated with God….Another lie!..He does not look like an old man and with white, long beard! White is symbol of purity…Bullshit! Do the Voices know where these concepts come? NO! they don’t! they just repeat everything for ages and ages and with the pass of time they lost the knowledge of why…why these so called humans  lost the ability, trait or right of questioning, investigating, rationalizing ? Good question!
( Good question? I did not ask anything)

He took another breath and continued:

_We humans are born without any concept of good or bad .We are what our parents and society teach us, so we get used to some things like even if we don’t care what society assign for boys or girls like toys, colors, manners, chores, etc etc….You mean a boy is going to be gay if he plays with girls toys or likes the color pink or dos some girl’s chores? A boy or girl in a way is a born atheist since he does not belive or understand what “god’ is , he /she just goes to church because is an expected CHORE , and he mention “god” in his life as something learned or because their parents thought them to be afraid, thus these kids are not true believers.

You follow me?
_Yes, I am still here.
_ Ok …Some of these kids became true believers , like I was .
_You mean…you are not an atheist?
_I am now, thanks to God.

I got confused.

_Thanks to god? Hey God! Someone needs you over here!
God showed up like always with a ray of white lights and smoke and with his sempipheternal naked children.
_ Yesss?
Then something strange happened. This mighty god looked weaker and weaker and he was vanishing when he saw the Boxer.
_WTF??!!
God was gone, I could not understand this or the Boxer grin, smirk, smile.
_Did you see that?
_ See what? I did not see anything, all I saw was a common man like you and I that came here and left.

_What??!!
_ Ok I’ll explain. I see him as any regular man , everybody see him as they or their subconcient wants to. To me he was invented by men when they could not explain phenomena of our  Mother Nature , to solve all their problems or to forgive them for their sins , especially men’s sins ,since women are supposed to follow his laws to the letter. You see him vanishing because you can’t unload yet all those concepts thought to you by your parents or society, when person like me talk about humans being free thinkers he start to vanish. By the way , I am not the only one, there is many boxers around.
You see him like that because you are afraid, which is normal, since you at some time were one of the Voices…do you see some of those Voices how they act before his presence?

Lok at them, afraid, some faint, some bow their heads, some don’t dare to look at his face, the majority ask him for a favor.
God exists thanks to these folks.

Some how my mind wandered to a country where politicians were semi-gods.
The Boxer continued:

_Lets resume: our infancy and adolescence is ruled by the “good” society and their infallible knowledge learned from ancestral sayings like_________ withoust stopping to raionalize.
But then you became a MAN.
Some men more or less shake their beliefs from childhood, some don’t, some you will see them like you saw some of those Voices fearsome of god and deprived of any will to do anything in their own, most of them will say “if god’s will” or “the government should…”
_ But why those things popping out all over your body?
I saw protuberances and cavities all over his body in a very distinctive shapes.
Like a magic word he standed up and started to fight the invisible enemy.
His eyes closed , his mouth wide open , short breathing, anxiety there.
The Voices peeked and shouted:
_SEE!! See by yourself his dirty thoughts!
_Go away!
And they left.
The Boxer could manage some words and said:
_It’s no me! Those are not my ideas! Is this devilish snake sent by Stan to poison my mind!! She injects poisonous ideas !!,

My mother and most people in  my hometown all the time said that women were the devil, they told me sex was bad ,I know sex is not to enjoy, a thing from the devil, something nobody should mention it, especially women.
_Why they came into your life?
_Is a natural thing, is something gentic, if you learn from society that something is mysterious, like sex is normal for kids to investigate why.Do you know children masturbate as early as 2 years old?
Oh man I control saying these things! Help me , please, someone please help meeeeeeeee!!!

The Voices comely came to his rescue:
_We have pity on you Boxer, come and pray with us.
An exorcist came by too.
Holy water showed up I don’t know  from where.
But the Boxer kept saying:
_Have you felt the walls of a vagina wet, smooth, slimy? AGHHHHHHHHHH!!! Please helppppppp!!
_Ave maria Purisima!

_Sin pecado concebido!
_Santa maria madre de dios…..
_There is nothing better than enjoy sex with a being you love, be a man or a woman. NOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Please kill meeeeee!! I did not say that!
A whole bucket of holy water was poured in the Boxer.
_We always knew he was a gay! Just look at his PINK shorts! Beat the devil!
_Have you felt a woman breast grow in your mouth? NOOOOOOO!!
_Blasfemy!
_Women are like blooming flowers when they give you the best present ever: their holy femenine nectar! OH NOOOOOOO Please God Help me!
_Satan va de retro!!
Have you ever seen a clitoris?? Have you seen it grow ?Aghhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Have you seen a vagina pulsate when is having an orgasm?
The cavities and protuberances kept tormenting him.
Then a woman’s face showed up in his head.
I could tell now HE WAS TORMENTED.The good advices from mama came to his mind: Women are the Devil.
Are women really the devil?? Why a woman would talk like that about one of her own genre?
Are all women devils?

Or only the ones with short skirts and free smile? Or the ones who does not cover her face when passing by men? Or the ones who smile back when a man flirts with them? Why they were called whores even if they did not sell their bodies?
What colors are acceptable? Who determines which ones are acceptable? Who grants the power to the color dictators? Who is exempt from using them?
Are gays sons of the devil? Can a Man love another man? Can a woman love another woman?
Why if some humans can't love a person different than them , why don't they at least respect them?
Who is supposed to judge gays , Men or God? Are they free beings?
Oh God Help me!!
And God came:
_Why do you think we called you? To cry for help? Or to help us? Good help we got!